I made bad choices I chose platonic loves, I chose to love platonically from Jenny Lina's blog

Choices and loves

I made bad choices I chose platonic loves, I chose to love platonically….. Love is seen in two. Two doves who love each other in the sky, two butterflies who live the one day they loved. I would like to be a butterfly, to fully enjoy the few days I have to live, just loving.

Two children playing on a rocking chair, two grandparents walking hand in hand and with the same hearts.... There were times when we lived in a platonic love we see it imperfect perfect. Why ? Because I loved or believed that…

The wrong people always teach us something, to appreciate and learn what love is. After this platonic love, I found myself, I learned to love myself, maybe I am grateful for that to him.

 Every man has his man. There are always people who save us, who show us what love is, and yes, I also had people who taught me what love is and I loved in turn, but this time together....

 Until we are loved properly, we have to go through a war, at least some of us… You know it's like a game of hide and seek until you find the last person, discover other people….

YES BUT NOO
 

Throughout my life I have met many stories, many people who shared their feelings, but I have rarely met someone who did not use a "gift". More precisely, we always find something that is not good, something where more can be done, but still, but and again but.

Why do we choose to see and leave something bitter at the end, something that eclipses everything that is beautiful, everything that was said before.

"Everything is good, but it seems that it is not enough.", when you feel that you are not satisfied with a person, with a situation, when you feel that something is missing, it means that you are staying somewhere where you will never have everything you need . It's so simple, we just have to learn not to stay where we don't find ourselves, not to look at ourselves. I think that in fact there will always be a "gift", maybe because we are afraid to say that everything is perfect, that we are happy, and when you least expect that happiness to disappear, so we use a gift.

It's hard for me not to use a "but", I'm happy but I don't feel complete happiness, I'm loved but not loved the way I love or how I should feel loved, I have many people by my side but still sometimes I feel alone or maybe I want to be alone, I love but I love with fear. I would like to learn to stop only at

"I'm happy now"

"I'm Loved Now"

"Love Now"

Life is too short to stop every time, to put two dots and worry, to think too much and not to act with instinct. When there is a gift, there are also doubts. When there are doubts, there are too many thoughts. These too many thoughts feed fear, the fear that people who have a special sensitivity is sometimes greater than any act of courage.

Let's learn to put a full stop sometimes, a full stop when we affirm something positive, let's let it stay in our life like that, without a comma, without questions, without fear!

Thoughts
"I never wished you harm, I never wanted to make you suffer. I loved you, maybe too much, maybe too little sometimes, maybe more clumsily or maybe too well. I won't deny that you hurt me because you did, and it hurt me, it hurt me like I didn't think and I couldn't imagine that I would feel. I imagined a different ending, in fact maybe I didn't see an ending, maybe I imagined you differently. I had expectations from you, maybe I was wrong, maybe not. There was too much "maybe" between us, maybe we will succeed, maybe not. Beloved, I know that I loved you, loved with all my heart, with all my mind, with all my body, with every tear, I loved you. I loved loving you the way I did. I do not regret anything. Instead, your words are hard, they were hard. I couldn't answer you, suddenly, everything I knew about you, about us to erase, the beautiful memory, you a man I considered mine.

 It hurt, I didn't want to break up with you, even though I accepted that it was the end, my heart didn't want to take you out of it, even if you didn't stay with the same goal, I wanted you to stay, to stay. I care about the person and the soul in you and I admit that, and if life ever brings us face to face, know that I will give you a smile, a smile for all the others you have given me. 

Be happy, love with all your heart and don't forget to understand, enjoy life, give as much as you get. Be honest with yourself, be responsible!

Have a nice life !

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Until life brings us face to face again!"